Again C is making a huge fuzz about almost nothing, her bf lives in another city therefore she doesn’t see him often, then among our friends there’s this guy that she likes a lot I know this for sure because tha day we meet them she told me to pick another guy when she saw I was talking with this one, in order to keep the harmony I said it was ok (any way I liked another guy and went for him)things went further and we became friends with this group of people and she grew close to this guy, some times saying that she hated him and another times saying that she found him quite nice; then after obviously showing her liking for this guy one of the girls in the group asked her if she was going to act because she liked the guy to, but that if she was going to make a move she was going to back off, now C has already planed how to skip all the outs that she had with all the group… and is in the verge of tears about that what I found quite stupid, because she told me “my pride won’t let me live if they are together” Gosh!!! she has a bf for goddess sake! any way one of my roommates is a depressive maniac and the other one is totally lazy about home duty… not have a clue about what to do really well I’m going to do what I do best ignore all the situation! I mean I would like that my friends that want the same guy than I would ask me first… not call me the Monday to tell me they already sleep with him Sunday… don’t know maybe I’m the weird one.
Sunday Morning! August 4, 2008
So, finally sunday! woe up after mid day and spend all day being lazy V and I had plans to go to see a play and we went, I walked all the way to his apartment and then it began to rain, why does this happen when I iron my hair? I asked the skies, of course, the only answer I got was that rain got worst, but I arrived to the apartment and off we went, the play wasn’t great but it was nice enough more nice is spending time with V, Arriving home I was talking with C, who went on how a particular disgusting girl that’s friend with V friends was rather nasty with her yesterday and I get amazed that she takes every Ting so dam serious but hey I grew up among girls, I just ignore them and don’t take any serious to get angry… so any way I was on a good mode and better went to my bedroom and began to rant this… I should go to bed right now
… in a second tough mmmm my hands and sweater smell like V lolI feel giddy
So… no more innocence July 21, 2008
So right I’m 25 living on my own in one of the biggest cities in the world, true be told I had never to much time for boys, first school then work keep me busy enough to seek a guy, well that and the fact that usually guys would find me to weird to talk to; and no I don’t have three heads or anything like that, lets just say that cultural differences were keeping me of having a bf since the tender age of 15, then almost a week before turning 25 I could finally stop lying about my sexual expertise, weird enough this time a few days a go I had never do the “thing”. yes ok you can pity me… but it was just that I had never had the chance, again “cultural reasons” but here I’m now opening the blog with such a estrange post right? soo keep reading, any way moving to this city came with the realisation that all my friends here are a lot bit older than me, every one in my friends circle is around 30 to almost 40 I’m pretty ok with that since for some reason I feel more at ease and find them less idiotic, any way a few days ago I did it; at least I’m no longer a virgin in a society that frowns that at my age. so it was nice? di it hurt? I’m gonna make it again soon? yes very in a very weird way, like a bitch truly, I’m certain of that! now I have like a ton and not of emotional problems it’s not like my life has changed for ever or anything like that, it’s weird you now, living what I should have lived like 10 years ago right now. But at some grade I wonder how many hidethe fact that they are virgins and not because religion or anything like that maybe just because they haven’t had a good chance? andtrust me I have had “slut” and “bad” atached to my name since I was 14…
any way I have a photo shoot tomorrow at nine… and have to go all over the other sideof the city!
